"Smiling Depression" -- PCOS Depression | MENTAL HEALTH | Vlog Day 2

To all who are dealing with depression, please know you are not alone. Seeking help is NOT a sign of WEAKNESS! Trust me I’ve spent many years being scared to ask for help. Scared that I’d seem like I’m just asking for attention. Scared that my family and friends might think of me differently. Scared to be labeled “the depressed one”. Scared I’d be judged because my life is pretty good. I thought, hey it can’t be that bad if I’m able to get outta bed. It can’t be that bad if I’m not suicidal. It can’t be that bad, I smiled today. But IT CAN STILL BE THAT BAD. For so long I thought I was just a miserable person. My boyfriend at the time was really unsupportive and got mad at me every time I was sad. I was told I’m being over dramatic and thus felt like being sad wasn’t normal. I stood silent for so long that it became normal to me to feel this way. Id seem perfectly happy around people and the second I was alone, I’d break down. Crying as if someone had died. The craziest part is that Ive been dealing with depression since before High School and I never knew it. I was highly functional and mostly happy, but often enough I was depressed. Feeling hopeless and utterly alone, thinking it was just me. When I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2017, it came as a relief to find that depression was a common symptom. It made so much sense. Ive been able to manage it since, and now I have a better understanding of why. However it wasn’t until today that I learned of “smiling depression”, this— this is exactly what I have. (When Im feeling depressed). Im glad I am able to share this with you all. I hope in some way it helps you. ♥ Many people in my life have no idea. This video will come as a surprise to many of my family and friends. You may be thinking, “Chiena why didn’t you just talk to me”…. but it really isn’t that simple. In those times there isn’t really anything anyone can say. Just know that you being there for me, has helped tremendously. Though you didn’t know, you’ve helped me become who I am today. The person strong enough to openly talk about my experience. ♥ GO SUBSCRIBE to my PCOS channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCPLF... 📻Music 📻 Channel: LuKremBo Video: (no copyright music) lofi type beat “biscuit” | free vlog music | prod. by lukrembo Link:    • lukrembo - biscuit   Channel: jamutka3 Video: Joakim Karud - Canals Link:    • Joakim Karud - Canals   📠 CONTACT ME 📠 ⇾ [email protected] ⇾ instagram: cheyology_ ⇾ snapchat: cheyynahh ⇾ tiktok: chienabrie 📷USED IN THIS VIDEO📷 Sony a5100