learning to love the body that you have...| a letter to my future self 🤍

Recently, I noticed that I went up a pant size. I stepped on the scale for the first time in years and saw that the number was 12 lbs heavier than the last time that I weighed myself. I. freaked. out. Most people may see my body and say, "what do you need to workout for?" or "you have nothing to worry about." And maybe, I don't have anything to worry about. But for the first time in my life, I started to become more + more aware of my body; how my body doesn't quite look good in the clothes that I had from college. I kept telling myself to lose the weight to fit into my clothes again. I kept over-analyzing every ounce of fat that I saw on my body. I kept comparing myself to my petite friends whenever I stood next to them in photos. Coming to terms with my body involved reassessing my relationship with food and reframing my mindset. "I don't have to fit into the same pair of jeans that I wore when I was 18-22" "How fun would it be to reinvent my style anyways?" "I shouldn't eat just because I'm bored or stressed." When I'm ready to have a family, I'll have to mentally prepare myself then too, for my body to change in the most beautiful ways- to give life. And how amazing is that? Part of my reasoning for making this short film was because I wanted to look back on this, in the future, and have a good laugh about how ridiculous I was being for constantly comparing my body image to others. I know this is going to happen because I was self-concious about my body in college. But, I look back at old dance videos now and gawk over how in shape I was back then. So, future Jess/Jessy/Jessica, I hope you've learned to love yourself from the inside and out- because I'm still working on it. Follow me 🖤 Instagram-   / jesschau_   Tik tok- https://www.tiktok.com/@jesschau_?lan... Facebook-   / infatuatedwithsimplicity   Depop- https://depop.com/jesschau_ For Business Inquiries Email: [email protected] Current Sub Count: 694 MUSIC CREDIT: Music by River Spirit - Drift - https://thmatc.co/?l=006C2131